Icon: Kim Deal

I'm a sucker for ladies with longevity. Recently I watched LoudquietLoud a documentary about the Pixies. So many precious moments there. Kelley and Kim recording the Breeders on the tour bus while knitting! Discussing the alcohol content of non-alcholic beer! Kim's parents telling interviewers she needs to get on the road with the Pixies because she needs something to do besides make paper cut out snowflakes! Adorbs. I'm mega into Kim Deal. Not because I'm too nostalgic or mobidly fascinated with an older, sober, subdued version of an idol, but because she's really fighting the good fight to rock and roll 4-ever. Much much love to Kim Deal.

My mother wouldn't be too proud to know at age 15-16 used to loiter outside gas stations looking for a beer buyer singing, "We're just looking for ONE DIVINE BUYERRRRRR!" ahhhh, the days.

Icon: Yoko Ono

I had the fortune of attending Yoko Ono's Dress Rehearsal performance at BAM Monday night. I swear, it's going to take me a year to process the whole show beginning to end. From the video montage retrospective of her life/work (I cried the whole time). If ever you wondered why this woman does what she does...it's so clear. In the face of EVERYTHING the bastard world has to throw at her she's the ultimate optimist. I couldn't respect any one more. She devastates my heart with her tenacity and positive outlook. You could try to burn her at the stake and she'd offer you a hug. It's the complete re-version/visioning of DISARMAMENT.

Here's the rough outline of the show.
It both lightens and sinks my heart to see "WAR IS OVER...if you want it" lit on top of taxi cabs in New York in 2010.

Nothing's changed but the art still remains.

So there's this dress at the t-shirt booth, that's a mystery to me. Who designed it? What does it mean, man!!?


There's a reason this woman must open her mouth. for the pretty to come out.

There were lots of special guests. (including a sneaky Mark Ronson, I'm pretty sure, Scissor Sisters and Chimera) I know I should have loved Kim, Thurston and Yoko doing "Mulberry" best. But truths be told I loved Justin Bond's "What a Bastard the World Is" so so sososo much. So appropriate, campy, heart wrenching and awesome.





AND they played "Death of Samantha" live for the first time ever???!!

humor break: Bottoms are really at the bottom of everything. "Bottoms" on the bathroom stall....love you yoko.

And I know over time, and by complete cultural saturation of Lennon/Ono's "Give Peace a Chance" renders it totally cheezeballs. But I really don't care. I still think it's powerful to sing together and stand up--so there. (and singing together with this group was really fun and earnest).


Listen to this woman: "Stay healthy this year, and don't get too angry." .......okay, i'll try.

And One for Posterity

I began my make-uppin' in Portland with the ladies of Fat Fancy and wrapping up with them. My last gig for Carlee and Annie was for their grand opening of their new shop in downtown Portland. They've come such a long way. I'm so happy for them! Congrats ladies and I'll see you on the flip-flop. New York awaits....

Builders and the Butchers "Golden and Green"

Director/Photographer Alicia J. Rose signed me on as makeup lady for her second music video for Builders and Butchers' "Golden and Green". This is my first makeup gig for music video or film project (excluding some pretty gnar college films by friends). I found my nirvana, swear to you. There's nothing I love more than working with a strong group of talented women and guys. Team Awesome, indeed. Portland has a powerhouse of talent. I feel so lucky to have worked with the guys from Builders and the Butchers' breath taking video. ..chilllllls...


All pictures by Brandon Hafer:
The guys standing together in full make up and wardrobe outside of the barn in White Salmon, WA.
Dirty Harvey by the pond.

Rachel Hightower helping dirty up Harvey's hands.
Ooh! Creepy Ryan Solee taking on the role of bad guy.

I met the two raddest ladies on the shoot Nicole (left, wardrobe) and Rachel (right, stylist). Here we are being team awesome. We're friends for life fer ser 4 evs. LOVE THEM!

Ray with a shotgun outside the barn. Ruthless.

He'll peer into your soul!
I'm now an expert on under eye circles and dirt.


Alex looking fierce with that waxed stache and scar. Hell yeah.
Busy, busy me. Elbows deep in Ben Nye's Death Wheel and black pigment.

Gag Me with a Spoon

I went thrifting just across the border in Longview and Vancouver, WA yesterday. All day. Found these seven inches from my prepubescent days.

Whole Hogg

I'm feeling Pam Hogg, musician, writer, director, and designer. She's a total rebel, relentless and fearless. She creates every piece by herself, with no financial backing other than friends/fans. She's left and come back. Love it. DIY QUEEN.

I can see the bodysuits worn as under-pieces with an angular black dress with cutouts over top. Who's got that kind of body to pull off a solo bodysuit, day-um.

Anyone who knows me, knows I'd wear the shit out of this:

Icon-Lydia Lunch

Lydia in Richard Kern's film "The Right Side of My Brain" got me into so much good poetry and No-Wave. I became obsessed with Lydia and Exene's book Adulterers Anonymous.Their poetry is what inspired me to write. Paradoxia: A Predator's Diary blew me away.I fell in love with Sonic Youth and Death Valley 69 and Harry Crews. Lydia is prolific and crosses genre boundaries as much as she steps over the line of obscenity/foul mouthed anti-status quo lovliness.

As you might have guessed, I'm really into iconoclastic women who keep on creating their whole lives. She's still rock'n'rollin' Damn.

"I will live! And I will live..eh, not necessarily well, but with verve, vigor and a hell of a lot of vinegar." --Lydia Lunch 2008

Lydia-Love 4 EVA.

Rip Her to Shreds

This shirt/tank style is everywhere (Obesity and Speed/Wang)--shit. I love how tore-up and gauzy the t-shirt knit becomes after tugging and tearing away at it. This is Zana from Garbage Dress who is AMAZING and love her stee-low.


Here's a really basic how-to. Easy-peasey nice and breezy. *think* ripping/running a pair of nylons and there you have it.

1. Find a cheap white t-shirt. Preferably cotton/poly blend. 60/40 or 50/50.



2. Use a seam ripper to take out a tiny thread and pull it, creating a slice 1/4in-3inches long. Then begin to pull, rip and run the material like nylons or pantyhose all the way down.



3. This is the end result. Not that hype on white (too pure)...think I'll dye it black/grey maybe uneven tie-dye (without ties).

Two Tone Hair Job

I was going to grow my two tone mess of hair out brown. Or whatever color it is naturally. Fuck knows I haven't seen more than a 1/4 inch in 15 years.

Then I saw this collage this morning and I was like, NO WAY. I'm staying full on dyed/bleach jobs until forevers. Staying true goth-punk style. That picture of the girl kissing Robert Smith (!!!) These peeps are my fashion icons.



Mind you, I wear a hair piece everyday now. Over teasing my lifeless, burned out pathetic hair into a tizzy. I want it big and crazy, and I want it now. I can get this piece looking like a hair hopper's dream cum true. I customized a premade piece by adding bangs.


FYI this is what I'm workin' with folks. I shaved my head in a panic, then rationalized it as my "Obama=Change Haircut". Now it's basically a hot mess and annoying the living daylights outta me.

Icon- Cosey Fanni Tutti

Artist, non/musician, and sex worker Cosey Fanni Tutti (from Mozart's opera Cosey fann tutti= Women are like that). Cosey most famously played in Throbbing Gristle. But I'm really into the work she did as a sex/worker/artist for Prostitution exhibition.

Chris and Cosey "October Love Song"


People have their wieners in a twist about the Kanye/Chairlift pixel melting debacle. Cosey ruled the video tape-scape, dudes. Get over it.

Epic Leather

I gotta kiss it goodbye. This leather baby's off to a country beloved to me, sweet sweet Japan. I love you Japan. I do. Everyday more and more. sniff, sniff. Makes me misty.



I can just picture it now, a mini motorcycle mistress cruising in Langlitz Leathers duds down the streets of Tokyo. I wish I wish I wish.



I really hope to be able to use this money to go back to Japan this summer. Fingers crossed on the economy! Until then I'll hunker down and watch stupid youtube vids until everything settles down.

Seckington+Danny=Sedan

OMGWTF. I'm so freakin' excited. Sedan is playing in Portland tomorrow night at Dante's Inferno. These fellas were in other killer bands. Danny's a crazy good drummer and played in Enemymine, Jackie O. Motherfucker, LLP, Mocket and Mirah. Scott's in two of my other favorite bands ever, Two Ton Boa and Verticleville.

These guys are so super rad. And I love them much so much. I've included Sedan in every mix tape or playlist I've made in the past 4 years or so--including my friend Sophia's birthing mix tape (yeah, I still make mix tapes).

Dawn of the Living Dead + 8===D

There's no doubt, I'm a huge zombie movie fan. I'm obsessed. In extended conversation, I'll most likely bring up zombies once--maybe twice, more likely five times. Somehow everything seems related to the living dead. But perhaps it's my lingering punk rock/goth ethic that makes me really think about the morbidity of it all.

Jules and Darrin started a new project to come out later next month on imputor? records whose namesake recalls a part of the human body, 8===D. The boys expressed interest in remaking/deconstructing 70's and 80's zombie scores with heavy, heavy scary stuff. Like these delayed and tripped out zombie voices from Dawn of the Dead.

And this classic Italian remake of the of the movie by director Dario Argento and the score by Goblin.

Rad! I want to help. I think they need a little (.)(.) with their 8===D

Health Club Music

First of all, I love the name of Kaori and Travis' handmade synth instrument company "Health Club Music". I feel healthier listening to the blips, blops and yummy distortion coming from their synths. I had the pleasure of having dinner with these two circuit board geniuses a few nights ago. My fella, has a few of their synths and I just adore how each custom piece is hand labeled and spray painted. Aesthetically, they are little pieces of craft technology gold.


I love this theramin made from a toy doctor's case.


Kaori and Travis sell these one of kind instruments through their website and have premade custom pieces for sale on ebay.

Mix Tape in Spanish

A Spanish language magazine, Tendencias, apparently the "Nylon magazine of Spain" published a story about the mix tape article I wrote for Found Magazine. Here's the article, "Nostalgia of Young Love" is about all I can translate.

My tape is the blue one on the bottom left corner with the "1111111111 <3". It was made for me by my ex-boyfriend a bazillion years ago but it's still really sweet to listen to. And you can listen too!

Meat Artitsts

All this talk of leather has me thinking about meat. It's amazing the relationships humans have with preserved animal skins.

My fella bought me the new Art in America for Valentine's Day. I wanted to read about the cover artist Elizabeth Peyton. And I super love the somber Sid Vicious on the cover. I'd hang that painting in my house no problem.

I ran across the artist Heide Hatry (great name, btw).


I was just staring at this image in the magazine trying to figure out what it was, what was it made of? So I looked her up and found tons of great images of what you might call a meat retrospective. This is from her artist statement: "In my recent work, my primary material is fresh, untreated pigskin. I discovered that I responded intensely to its feel, smell, and the deeply corporal overall sensation it engenders. I find its effect in sculptural work as well as in photographs uniquely "human."

Here are a few that really got me from the meat artists I've found from the curatorial "Meat After Meat Joy".

Carolee Schneemann from Meat Joy


Adam Brandejs


Simone Racheli


Although Mark Ryden wasn't included in this group of meat artists. I suppose because he is extremely contemporary. I'd like to add this piece--Angel of Meat.


One last thought from Mark Ryden from his newest book "The Tree Show" I purchased this month. The breakdown of tree vs. animal.

Icon

Exene Cervenka from X has been my style icon since I was just a pup. Her irrefutable style has had a huge impact on everything from fashion, art and music. What is most exhilarating about her aesthetic is the DIY credo. From collages, the Original Sinners, poetry zines and even her semi-annual "garage sale" on ebay, I'm 100% interested in what Exene touches.



obsessed with this 7" cover

my favorite band of all time